Wanting more..

Stress. It's a killer. The more I want and do, the more time it takes up in my life. I work two jobs, go to school, take care of a house, spend time with my significant other, and try and squeeze in different things in my life like tarot. 

Working out my own business plan, doing research and also, trying to do a few readings on the side can be time consuming. It is the one thing that I don't mind taking up all my time. 

I have a lawn outside of my house and the weeds and grass are quite overgrown. I have been waiting on the landscaper to come and save the possible jungle that could develop from my front lawn. In a way, I want to just let it grow; see what outcome could come of it. I want to test nature! Have the grass grow taller than the house and have the crab tree envelope me and all my possessions. Unfortunately, I live in an area where there is a Home Owners Association and they make the landscaping rules. Someone came to the house last week, explaining that neighbors were complaining about how over-grown everything was. Maybe I just want to rebel against the "Man". Then again, I want to be able to choose if I want my lawn to become an enchanted forest or not. I want to choose what I do,when I do it. Most of all I want to help others explore what THEY want. I want to help them through that journey of understanding and self-awareness. Most of all, I want to live a life of love and not live a life of "how much TIME do I have to do the things I love?" Looking at life in fractions are frustrating! I want to be free and explore! 

Won't you come on this journey with me? 

I feel like The Emperor- arming myself with goals and future plans. Setting masculine responsibility all over the damn place. Meticulous, methodical, and intellect rolling into one gigantic visual of the "big picture", I'm "big picture girl" now. These are all good things but I am spread so thin with all I am putting myself into...

The Tower is what I want. I want to flip everything on it's head. Look in places I wouldn't even think! To be shaken; I want to be uprooted, bent and bolted. I want to turn in a direction I never thought I could. I want the storm to blow me into the unknown and I want to take a leap with this journey of self-love and tarot. I am torn between responsibility and renewal. 

For all those that have read this bit, I thank you. Your support and indulgence has given me a great deal of a boost. Cheers to you all <3

   

Introductions and things..

There a few many things that get me hyped in this world. I am an avid lover of Buffy the Vampire Slayer (anything Joss Whedon, really), fine art as well as performance art and of course, TAROT! I have been a painter and creator of everything crafty for twelve years on and off. The idea of tarot started as an art idea. I had a plan. A long works in the making but I eventually wanted to create and distribute my own tarot deck! After I decided on such a large project, I did some research. I knew a friend of a friend who did readings for free because she was still learning. She was the one who showed me the impact of tarot. From there I fell in love and I fell hard and I haven't looked back since.

My journey started almost a year ago, in late August. I bought a tarot deck on a whim while skimming my local bookstore (which happens to be a Barnes and Noble). I played with it and connected with it instantly. It also came with an extra King of Cups, which has helped me through my tarot journey immensely. I did readings for myself and for others. From time to time I still have to reference the book Most people don't really care as long as I give them a thorough reading. The more I connected with others and with different decks, the more I felt like this was my life's calling. So here I am! Blog talking to you all and putting a bit of me on this page. I'm not quite sure if this is going to make the cut yet but it's nice to get myself started and work through that writers block that's been giving me a bit of trouble lately.

All I can say is thank you for checking this humble blog out and reading a bit of me.

Cheers! From me to you <3