August and September Card: Daughter of Pentacles and The Eight of Wands

Phew.

That word pretty much sums up what I have been going through in my life! First off, for all those who read my blogs I want to apologize for being so distant. These past few months have been overpowered with changes and stress and a whole bunch of wonderful, scary, new and exciting breakthroughs. Now, with that being said--

Hello, Daughter!

This card was my anthem for August. I powered through this month by going on job interviews, tons of job opportunities and lots of hard decisions that I had to make. My finances had dwindled but the opportunities were rich! In the end, the decision to choose one job over another became a trying choice but I feel as though I made the right one. Usually I have some quip or some inspirational metaphor for these types of things but I decided to get a little more personal here-- I was so lost and the cards helped me through the choice. Praying at my alter, meditating on what I had in front of me and being grateful for these opportunities that came into my life was very humbling. I felt lucky that i had the opportunity to even have a problem like that! I was experienced yet, new and I feel that this is what truly embodies the Page (or in this case The Daughter) of Pentacles.

The Eight of Wands...
Oh my Odin.

As I slid out of August and into the month of September, I was in pretty good spirits and things were looking up until...

My house became infested with termites (yikes) and I had no choice but to leave my home and live with my father. This is not something I was expecting and I was completely uprooted and defeated. This all happened on my birthday on top of it but, this was a sign. The sign of change has been coming up in the cards for a long while for me. I've gotten The Tower card almost everyday  in my daily readings and this literally shook the foundation of where I lived. I get it Mother Earth, I heard you!

In a way I felt relieved to move away and start something fresh and work on something that was my own. By no means has it been easy and many things I love have taken a back seat but I understand the purpose of it. I know the WHY and in a way; I was sort of expecting it. The Eight of Wands talks about sudden change as well and change is never easy- whether you were expecting it or not.

All I can say is that I am glad to be back in my blog game and back to doing the thing that I love.
Much, much love honey bees!!
XOX        

July Card: The Chariot Reversed

This post is extremely late -- I know. I also know that this month has been the month of extreme lack of control and direction. I feel I am in a slump and my anxiety has been at an all time high! To pin point such things and where they are stemming from is a very difficult thing to do. This month, I do not have a realization for you, I do not have a lesson learned. All I have is awareness and understanding of what I am feeling in the now.

As I pull the reins of The Chariot, I loose more and more control. The horses feel my fear and I'm going too fast to feel as though I can think on my feet. Things will get this way- you will feel anxiety and pressure and become super hard on yourself and you can try and think of every solution in the world to help you but sometimes, all you need to do is ride it out. Sometimes a crash is inevitable. Grit your teeth and brace yourself. Crash, pick yourself up and learn.

Things are always worse when you're in the thick of it. After the fall, there is always a way to recovery. Live in it at this moment, feel every bit and the rest will come later.

 
(I wish I could credit the artist but I could not find it anywhere!! This is not my image and if anyone knows this artist please email me!)