April Card: Mother of Cups

Emotions. The best and worst thing to happen to the human condition.

The Mother of Cups is depicted as a swan- strong and protective. A graceful, proud bird that is intuitive, graceful and understanding. She moves through water so fluid; like water itself. She is encompassed with emotion and warm-fuzzies. To be completely honest- throughout the month of February and March I felt nothing like the Mother of Cups. Boarding up my heart was pretty much my main concern and I was alright with that.

The idea of being in complete contact with cups was a distant thought but, one always makes plans and those plans are usually skewed by actual living. Do know the saying "the heart wants what the heart wants"? Well, I believe that to be completely and utterly true. No matter how closed off I assumed I was going to be- I couldn't help but be open and inviting and welcoming to those around me. The Heart Chakra was convinced about staying open, inviting and wise. And I was in control of it. I was aware of it happening and I gave myself permission to be all of those things. I was the mother of my own emotions. I received my first online, paid for, tarot reading and the timing could not have been more perfect. Such a time where I was aligned and understanding.

I have always been afraid that I would make the same mistakes over and over with my heart and that one day I will become weary because of it but, this wasn't the case. Nor has it been the case....
I was fluid- like the swan in all of her wisdom and empathy. I knew I was worthy of that and my heart was open and understood all the consequences that came along with such a choice. More than ever- I was ready.


Happy Mother's day.

XOX
  

March Card: Mother of Pentacles Reversed

March was an extremely personal month for me. Things were quite shaky and I was running through a process of feeling exposed, emotional, and raw. Having this spread in front of me- I looked at my options: I could rely on my relationships and get completely sucked into this small, little, hidden world or I could break out and understand where it all was coming from.

There is nothing wrong with relying on others but time is the essence of where healing comes from. Everyone is guilty of burying themselves in something to hide a wound or to avoid a healing process. It will always get worse before it gets better. Don't let the wound fester and infect your life and habits. Dig up emotions, plant a new seed, and allow that to grow out of the deep cut that was left there. It's not fucking easy in the least; it never is. Be aware of the lines being crossed for yourself from healing into co-dependency.Don't allow the Queen of Pentacles to protect something that needs to be exposed; allow it to collect oxygen and heal itself in the light of day. You are worth it. XOX